Ahhhhhh… PEACE! I get it. Why it hurt so bad and for so long. I don’t believe in ‘bad timing’…oh wait; this is worth repeating…”I DON’T BELIEVE IN ‘BAD TIMING’!” I believe in ME. I believe in respecting myself and others. I believe in not allowing myself to be disrespected. I believe in letting respectful people into my life. I believe in the understanding that even though knowone is perfect, we are responsible for how we treat others AND how we allow them to treat us. You shut the door and I left it open a crack. You never meant ‘I love you’ and you REALLY never meant ‘we will stay friends’. But I will always be greatful for the pain. Without it I would not be at this place right here right now. I have more patience and love for myself. So even though I will never truely know how you really feel about me and I will never see your face again I am greatful that I loved you and part of me always will. I have grieved the loss of you my love. Maybe one day in heaven we will have that drink and talk about our lives.
I still miss your hazel eyes. But most of all; I miss you wanting me. I thought you loved me. I still love you. But I will probably never see your face, hear your voice, or read your words ever again. I wish for you to have love, but not the unrequited. For as much as I want you, I do not wish you this pain. I wish you could stop my tears, mend my heart, and ease my troubled mind. Goodbye my love………I long for peace.
Time,
I see you. I respect you now. I am patiently allowing you to heal me. We are friends; not foes. Different…but with the same common goal. Peace. Clarity. Let’s never have another falling out. I will give and take from you. You can give and take from me.
Slow and steady you fall. My mind fights to not let go. Is it the love I want to remember or the pain? Longing for…?
Hmm…
So, I’m finding me. I like what I see.
I’m finding MY wants; MY desires. I like what I believe.
Will I find HOW to get this new life? I like what I dream.
My true & dear friend,
Your truth brings me to tears. Your strength inspires me. Your friendship pleases me. Your support strengthens me.
I wish for your broken wing to heal.
The best sex is after you’ve done it multiple times; it hurts to get another erection. You salute your partner and pack your canons.
Ahhhhhh…I miss that…when you can’t get enough of your lover & when your lover just can’t get enough of you. Go all night until you pass out. Wake up & have really good dirty sex. One of the best things in life!
Ever wonder why some people don’t believe in you? Maybe it’s your track record. Stop & think. Have I given people any reason to not believe in me? & if no, have I given people any reason to believe in me? & the biggest question of all…How can I make a new track record so that I believe in me?
The Sun will rise again another day. Nights are scary. Days are bright. Up and down, an emotional rollercoaster. We manage our days, because we know that we will have light again tomorrow. Why can’t we share this equilibrium with ourselves. When we are sad we need to know the sun shall rise again.
The never ending struggle to follow ones own advice. Why is it so unnatural to be best friends with ourselves? Ahh…the human condition. My own thoughts haunt me. Daily note to self: “Keep Yo Head Up!” an affirmation for us all.
